Yan tawag ng mom ko kasi lagi kaming tinatamad. "Tamad-itis" para bang sakit.

Yes I know.

PIPOOOOOOOOOOL, SINCE TINATAMAD AKONG MAGSULAT (AND I UPDATE MY MULTIPLY MORE NOW) PLEASE GO TO AFOREMENTIONED SITE. CONTACTS, YOU KNOW WHERE. NON-CONTACTS, IF YOU DO NOT UNDERSTAND, ASK ME. OR ELSE SORRY NALANG SA INYO. THANK YOU.

O, anong inaakala mo dyan? :))

Potpal is laptop spelled backwards. The heck with this thing. I'm not used to typing on the keyboard. Haha. So we're almost done with the sleepover. I'm still at Monica and Nicole's house (with my sisters of course). This is their potpal. We're going to the Pacific Mall with them later and to the Asian Festival thingy nearby.

So far life has been kinda busy. The relatives have been taking us everywhere. I'm still not done with Alice, I Think. I went biking on the Crap Bike yesterday.

Hay, buhay.

Man my life is boring. Man am I boring.

I don't like the way I write anymore. I don't even know who I am anymore. Sometimes I find myself, then I lose it again.

Then there's this blog. I feel like I want to quit writing here. Make a new one, but God knows I already have enough. I know I'm supposed to be blogging for me and me alone but I am too much of a perfectionist. Grammar structure has to be perfect, spellings are supposed to be correct. Besides, there are too many people who read this blog. People who know me.

Sometimes I want to spit out those words (eg. cuss like an army man). I feel depressed. Maybe it has something to do with my being sick but still. There are times when I am just so down and pressured I have no choice but to cry.

And the thing is there is just no place to cry in here. That's why I'm looking forward to moving, to starting over in another place where nobody knows me. Cause here, I don't even know myself. I am bottled, cramped, smothered, whatever you can think of. I need to let it out. I don't even know who the real me is unless I spit out what I want to spit out.

But I can't just do that. Everybody knows me, but not enough. I feel pressured to be somebody I'm not, and that pressure, added to the not-being-able-to-let-it-out thing, is more than I can bear. God, sometimes I want to quit.

You know prayer really helps. I know that not everybody who reads this is the same religion as I am, or were raised the same way as I was, but really, God is the only one I can talk to about everything. I talk to Him, to Jesus, to the Holy Spirit, and my other mama, Mary. And I talk to random saints, and to my guardian angel.

And you know what they never let me down.

No matter how much I inwardly cuss, no matter how much I want to scream and kick and throw a tantrum, no matter how I blame everybody, no matter how much I feel like quitting, they always pick me up.

White Flower is really a godsend. Oh, yes it is. Cause like I was telling you I was feeling really depressed today, right before I wrote this, and I was ranting about everything to everybody in heaven, to anybody who would listen.

And like they always do they talked back. They gave me White Flower.

For those of you who do not know White Flower is like an all-around mentholated oil which has a soothing, cooling effect. I was really feeling down and then this sudden thought came to me...White Flower, it said.

AY OO NGA NO.

May White Flower pala.

I had almost forgotten. It's been with me through countless stomach pains, headaches, and runny noses. And so since I thought this particular state of depression was somewhat caused by my non-fever, White Flower was the best, most effective cure.

It helped my splitting headache, unclogged my nose, improved my circulation, and cooled my temper.

What a godsend.

make a post about the following:

apr 4-went to sta rosa, laguna
apr 18-my birthday
apr 27-qcmc, the fort, market2
may 8-divisoria (check date)(basta saturday)
sometime after that na tuesday-dentist, landmark, som's, d'angelo's, oth school proj ep
may 13-u.p., market2 again
may 20-qcmc again, megamall, shrek 3
may 25-trinoma
may 27-garage sale, pirates 3
may 30-today; arielle's 14th bday

Dang, the computer is out again. Shorter posts, no internet access, having to endure dota-boy shouting.

This sucks.

IT'S MY BLOGIVERSARY TODAY!!! I have been officially blogging for one year! But I'm sick today. Haha. May Diagnostic Test pa naman bukas. Mag absent kaya ako. Huwahahaha. Wag na. Uy, 4 months na lang pala tapos goodbye Philippines na!

Will be taking my blog with me to Canada. :)

OMG! It's 11 PM and I just realized something. You see, I've been editing my posts (what with the wrong timestamp and all) when I saw my VERY FIRST POST. And the layout... man it was like yesterday I was sitting in that cafe and picking the most decent I could find, which happened to be a black angel. Golly wow, I'm about to hit my first year with this blog!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Not that I've been good at this, but still...

Happy blogsary me! :D

Sorry for everything wrong with the layout and my "tamad-ness" and for not posting regularly. It's just that it's really difficult to post when you can't even fix the layout. So maybe later (after I finish the Math project) I'm going to fix this, and, hopefully, post more regularly.

Something is seriously wrong with my blog. Annoying popups are everywhere, no matter what page you visit. Ugh. That's partially the reason why I've been off for so long, but that doesn't mean nothing's happening in my life. Well, tata.

I have hit an all-time high. Yesterday, I was on an all time low. So I'm happy... :D

Sorry for the last crabby post, ha. Sori sa mga natamaan, like I said in my Tagboard. Anyways... I have decided to change my url to "thefreewayexit", you know, something like a refuge. But I don't know if there is such a thing as a freeway exit. So I'll have to research on that.

Meanwhile... I just want to share something like a list of bloggers I admire:

+Vicky, because of her substantial, thoughtful posts. I love the way she writes. It actually inspires me to stick better posts and makes me realize that life is not that blah. Plus, we share a love for England and football (is that right?).

+Nina, for sharing her colorful life, and for the many pictures she puts up. A fabulously-gorgeous blogger who can speak perfect English; her posts are never boring. Wish she'd come out of hibernation...

+Avi, my writer friend, who can make a beautiful poem in less than a minute. Her posts are thought-provoking and she shows us that her life ain't just a boat ride.

+Aubrey, my other writer friend, whose gifts in the literature area are enviable. She can write stories that can make anybody cry, plus her poems are amazing.

Well, that's all for now. Wish I could write like the aforementioned girls... So will work on that. :D Enjoy life, people.

Bon noir!

Haaaay...I finally (!!!!) fixed the layout given to me by Nina. Nagkamali lang pala ako dun sa HTML nung inedit ko, which shows you just how bad I am with it. :))

So, I'm still going to change a few things here, but it looks better already, dontcha think?

Sorry for the short post... :D I'm kinda busy. Gotta go!

So...well...I'm supposed to be studying but as usual I'm putting it off until the last minute. Haaay...after this I PROMISE to stick my nose in the books.

Updates? I'll be changing my layout soon! Hopefully Christian is done with it. Sorry to those whose layouts I didn't use (well I have my reasons...and it's mostly because I'm no good at HTML). Anyway, happenings. We were supposed to have our Long Tests last Monday and Tuesday, but this typhoon came and classes were suspended on both days! So we had our Math, SS and Filipino tests today.

I read another Draco/Hermione fic today and it was goooood. Grabe naadik talaga ako dun ah...

So, um, I guess I'm done with this.

Naiinis nanaman ako sa sarili ko. Pano ba naman ang tagal-tagal ko nang hindi nakakapag-post. Ugh. Well. Tamad talaga.

Last June 13 was our first day of school. We got to meet our teachers. May homework agad. Perfectly normal.

I am bored. When I write like this you'll know I'm bored. I'm sorry if my thoughts are disorganized, because that's the way I think. Gulo-gulo.

Nota bene for those guys who don't know: you might be wondering why I speak mostly English here while in person I speak Tagalog. Ganito talaga ako. English mag-isip, Tagalog magsalita. Gulo no? Bear with me. So anyways, the reason my posts are in English is because I am writing down my thoughts. As I said before, I think in english. Baka dahil kakabasa. You know me naman eh.

TIMELINE OF MY FIRST TWO WEEKS

June 14, nothing special. 15th, ordinary school day. 16th, okei naman, but nothing unusual (except for English, but never mind what I'm talking about). Aaaand...yesterday and today, Long Test 1. Major headache. :))

As you can see, everything is normal normal normal. Normal as in boring-normal. Blah blah blah.

Question lang, do you think if i speak in tagalog my blog will be more boring? 'Cause i find english sites more readable. trying to read tagalog in longcut (excuse the term, after all I am a filipino) is, well, hard. I tend to skip a lot of things, which leads to not understanding what the person is talking about. Also, I noticed the [sudden] abundance of english-speaking people in the blogging world. Yeeeeessss, may kasama na ko.

And also, from reading other peoples' blogs, I've noticed that there are some different styles of writing. As in, writing-typing.

[one] ei guYz,, iM baCk,, sOrry hinDi nako nAkakapagpOst,, hehe
[two] My gosh. That was hard. I never expected it to be that hard. Ano na kaya grade ko nyan?
[three] Napag isip-isip ko minsan na hindi pala talaga ganun ang mga tao. May "other side" din sila. Hindi naman laging tama ang first impression mo sa kanila eh.
[four] I am bored. Wala akong magawa. Ayoko namang mag-aral. Nakakainis.

So, there. Hope you're satisfied. 'Cause you know what, I gotta go.